You see, Peter and I met when he was 10 and I was 11. Our families were friends from that point on, and we spent lots of time with each other and with them. This naturally meant that we are all pretty close. As we prayed about what to do when we married, Peter and I felt some time away to establish ourselves as our own family unit would be good (not to mention it was a bit of an adventure!).
What I didn’t realize at first, but what because very evident very quickly, is that this would mean giving up everything I’ve been so blessed to have here.
I’ve always lived in Kalamazoo.
I’ve always attended New Day Community Church.
I’ve always worked at my church.
I’ve always been close to my immediate family.
I’ve always been nearby to my dearest friends.
Those months of slicing off my heartstrings, crying out before God, and forcing my heart to deal with that question were agonizing. I distinctly remember kneeling in the front row at my church during worship one morning, sobbing, and giving God my full yes, even as I mourned the loss of the dearest people and places in my life.
A few weeks later, I was sitting in my boss’s office at church. My dad leaned forward and said, “I know you are all set to move to SC. And if that’s definitely where God wants you, you should go. However, I have been talking with the Board and the Staff, and we are able financially to promote you to the Church Administrator, if you stay here.”
My jaw probably hit the floor at that point--I can’t even remember exactly what my reaction was. I definitely think I was thinking something along the lines of, “What the heck, God!? I was supposed to give this all up for you because I trust you!?!”
I talked to Peter, and we spent a week in prayer about it. God told me either was ok, and it was up to us (God’s typical most-frustrating-answer-ever). And, wonder of wonders, He told Peter we should stay. Stay because WorshipArts was growing here and it would be blessed and able to expand faster than if we moved and started it from scratch. Stay because this job for me at New Day would be a huge way for him to reach his goal of running WorshipArts full time.
God is a God who wants your complete trust. And that means we get tested.
- He asked me to give up everything I’ve ever known for Him. Do you trust Me?
- He asked Abraham to give up his only chance at God’s biggest promise to him--his only son Isaac. Do you trust Me?
- He asked the Israelites to fight giants in order to claim their promise. Do you trust Me?
- In battle, he said send the worshippers out first. Do you trust Me?
- He asked David to serve the man who wanted to kill him. Do you trust Me?
- He asked Joeseph to wed Mary. Do you trust Me?
- He asked Peter to walk on water. Do you trust Me?
- He asked John to believe despite being in prison, with a price on His head. Do you trust Me?
- He asked his only Son to bear the sins of the world. Do you trust Me?
He asks you to serve Him with everything, to endure trial and joy, blessing and hardship, and love Him unconditionally.
Do you trust Me?