Watch, stand fast in the faith, be brave, be strong.
1 Corinthians 16:13
Sometimes sticking up for what you believe sucks.
Especially when it takes potential happiness away from someone you love... I'm fairly positive that the happiness would not have been lasting...but...it hurts to hurt others.
I am a line-drawer. I say "this is how it is, so deal with it." I am honest and to the point. I believe what I believe and I'll listen to your disagreements and consider them, but I don't often change my mind about issuses core to who I am. I draw the line and say--this is what I know is right and wrong. Get out of your gray area and face the black and white.
And you know what? That bothers a lot of people.
Coupled with this passion for my beliefs is a desire to show love to people; that's why I'm blunt and hard and painfully honest--because I love you, even if it doesn't look like it. I'm trying to look at a bigger perseptive. I know I'm young and not the wisest, but because of the wisdom of those who have gone before me, and because of the things I've experienced in my life, I passionately believe what I do.
When something that looks so good and harmless to the majority of the people in the world is so not setting with what I know is truth (not to mention it doesn't look healthly long term)...well, I'm sorry, but if I love you, I'm going to tell you.
The problem with this is that so many people don't feel loved when they are faced with black and white. They feel attacked...it sounds like an attack to say that I believe something you're ok with is wrong. I don't want to attack you as a person, I want to fight what that action or idea that I see as a lie or misconception or lower standard or just plain ...wrong! I suppose it doesn't help that when I get in this groove I get pretty serious, and people think I'm all tense and offensive. I'm just bracing myself, I guess. Putting my roots deep into something stronger than I am. Ready to face whatever you say because I know my foundation is firm. I guess that looks like I'm gearing for battle. And maybe in a sense I am...but its not that I am fighting YOU--I'm trying to fight FOR you.
So if I ever confront you about something or if I ever disagree, know its not an attack agaist you as a person. It's with the idea or the attitude or the action. Know I still love you as a person underneath it all. I fight the gray, I long to bring the white light of clarity.
If you won't draw the line, I will.