Wednesday, December 31, 2008

2008 Recap

What a year 2008 has been. Some highlights and memories...

  • January: My last HPA show, Narnia, as the crulie Howler Argoon in the White Witch's Army. I also served as the Props Mistress.
  • February: Trip to Disney world with my family and Lindsay! This was one of my favorite vacations. We took the camper and Emily, Linna and I stayed in our own girls tent on air mattresses. We celebrated Lindsay's 18th in EPCOT. We also saw dolphins when we stayed on the keys after Disney. So relaxing and fun! Minus the day Lewis was sick, of course, this was trip to remember fondly forever.
  • March: I'm sure something grand happened in March that I can't remember. Some birthdays happened I know...
  • April: I stage managed for HPA's Hello, Dolly! I absolutely LOVED this. Even though it was very hard and taxing work, it was work I enjoyed and I felt good at the end of the day. A great way to end my HPA invovlement as a student.
  • May: My Graduation from high school--12 years as a homeschooled student! It was lots of fun and I got to know my peers a bit better through all the graduating class activites. (Funny being homeschooled--you don't meet everyone in your graduating "class" until you're gradutation ceremony prep!) My senior Prom with the hottest guy ever as my date (Love you Peter!). (Nevermind that I was sick and had to go home early.) Also, on the 27th, it was 7 years since I met my love, Peter.
  • June: Graduation Parties! Peter's, mine, and Linna's. Lots of fun, pictures, presents, and great times with people I love! I played softball with my church throughout the summer. I started working part-time at church this summer, too.
  • July: Trip up north! I drove the longest stretch ever for me, from home to a camp up north--just about 6 hours. Linna was with me: Road Trip! We had a blast hangin' with my fam and the camp people. Then we had the New Day camping trip which rocked, too.
  • August: College prep and Peter left for MN and Linna left for her school which is far (but not as far) away. Peter and I had our one year anniversary of dating on the 27th!
  • September: My first semester at college began! Crazy crazy busy busy stress stress. ACC 100, BUS 103, ENG 160 (honors!), and MATH 116.
  • October: My friend Anne got married!!! And Peter came back to go to the wedding. There was a School of Prayer at my church. Peter came home for a whole week for October break. I was so busy with school I barely put any time into friendships...Linna and Cait were about the only people I was able to see.
  • November: I kept pluggin' away at school. Saw Twilight with the girls. Spent a great Thanksgiving with Peter's family!
  • December: Oh the dramatic change from the stress and burden of finals to the bliss and freedom of break! I got 4.0 in EVERY CLASS. I didn't believe it. What a blessing; thank You, Jesus!! The worst news came in December, however... my grandpa died. It still hasn't registered completely...the memorial will be in a month or so. But good news continues: Linna and Peter are HOME! More time to spend playing video games with my bros, making Christmas gifts, and hangin' with Peter and my friends. Christmas came and I got a fabulous cashmere/wool coat and shaweet boots. Yay! I spent the 26th to the 29th with the Webbs in Ohio visiting the Greenes. Lots of fun! I came home on my 19th Birthday and my family gave me their gift right then--a cute black sweater jacket and...a lot of cash. Yay again! Now I'm planning on spending New Years with Linna's fam and hopefully Peter and Corey will be there!
So there's my year recap. I suppose this was more for me to look back on... but I hope you enjoyed reading it too, and that it will encorage you to look back at your year and treasure the great moments.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Baby Steps

I really just need to start writing and stay writing. I always seem to go in spells...and thats no good when you need to stay on top of getting your thoughts out of your head and onto paper. (Cyber paper? Same principle.)

My birthday was yesterday. I'm the grand old/young age of 19. The years are really flying by; this is my last teenage year! Before I know it my twenties will be gone too. I really want to learn to live every day--truly live it. I suppose that is my new years resolution. To find a way to live my days to the fullest and not get trapped in the mundane drag of commonplace doings.

Maybe what I need to do is not write such long posts--then I might do more of them. Just a few paragraphs is a good place to start. Just like learning to live a few hours every day--or even one activity a day--will be the way to learn to live every moment of every day. Instead of worrying about jumping right to perfect, I need to start small. Like the baby steps I took about 17 and a half years ago, I'll take little steps now to achieving a better way of life.

Teach us to make the most of our time, so that we may grow in wisdom. -Psalm 90:12

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Black And White

Watch, stand fast in the faith, be brave, be strong.
1 Corinthians 16:13


Sometimes sticking up for what you believe sucks.

Especially when it takes potential happiness away from someone you love... I'm fairly positive that the happiness would not have been lasting...but...it hurts to hurt others.

I am a line-drawer. I say "this is how it is, so deal with it." I am honest and to the point. I believe what I believe and I'll listen to your disagreements and consider them, but I don't often change my mind about issuses core to who I am. I draw the line and say--this is what I know is right and wrong. Get out of your gray area and face the black and white.

And you know what? That bothers a lot of people.

Coupled with this passion for my beliefs is a desire to show love to people; that's why I'm blunt and hard and painfully honest--because I love you, even if it doesn't look like it. I'm trying to look at a bigger perseptive. I know I'm young and not the wisest, but because of the wisdom of those who have gone before me, and because of the things I've experienced in my life, I passionately believe what I do.

When something that looks so good and harmless to the majority of the people in the world is so not setting with what I know is truth (not to mention it doesn't look healthly long term)...well, I'm sorry, but if I love you, I'm going to tell you.

The problem with this is that so many people don't feel loved when they are faced with black and white. They feel attacked...it sounds like an attack to say that I believe something you're ok with is wrong. I don't want to attack you as a person, I want to fight what that action or idea that I see as a lie or misconception or lower standard or just plain ...wrong! I suppose it doesn't help that when I get in this groove I get pretty serious, and people think I'm all tense and offensive. I'm just bracing myself, I guess. Putting my roots deep into something stronger than I am. Ready to face whatever you say because I know my foundation is firm. I guess that looks like I'm gearing for battle. And maybe in a sense I am...but its not that I am fighting YOU--I'm trying to fight FOR you.

So if I ever confront you about something or if I ever disagree, know its not an attack agaist you as a person. It's with the idea or the attitude or the action. Know I still love you as a person underneath it all. I fight the gray, I long to bring the white light of clarity.

If you won't draw the line, I will.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Update soon...

Update coming after finals are over (Tuesday), I promise!

Lots o' love,
Tori

Friday, December 5, 2008

The Twelve Days of Finals

On the first day of finals, my professor gave to me one TI-83.

On the second day of finals, my professor gave to me two sharpened pencils and a TI-83.

On the third day of finals, my professor gave to me three (a day) cups of coffee, two sharpened pencils and a TI-83.

On the fourth day of finals, my professor gave to me four papers to rewrite, three (a day) cups of coffee, two sharpened pencils and a TI-83.

On the fifth day of finals, my professor gave to me five special journals, four papers to rewrite, three (a day) cups of coffee, two sharpened pencils and a TI-83.

On the sixth day of finals, my professor gave to me six hours of sleep, five special journals, four papers to rewrite, three (a day) cups of coffee, two sharpened pencils and a TI-83.

On the seventh day of finals, my professor gave to me seven (pages of) accounting transactions, six hours of sleep, five special journals, four papers to rewrite, three (a day) cups of coffee, two sharpened pencils and a TI-83.

On the eighth day of finals, my professor gave to me eight volunteering hours to schedule, seven (pages of) accounting transactions, six hours of sleep, five special journals, four papers to rewrite, three (a day) cups of coffee, two sharpened pencils and a TI-83.

On the ninth day of finals, my professor gave to me nine rows of math problems, eight volunteering hours to schedule, seven (pages of) accounting transactions, six hours of sleep, five special journals, four papers to rewrite, three (a day) cups of coffee, two sharpened pencils and a TI-83.

On the tenth day of finals, my professor gave to me ten nightmares of failing, nine rows of math problems, eight volunteering hours to schedule, seven (pages of) accounting transactions, six hours of sleep, five special journals, four papers to rewrite, three (a day) cups of coffee, two sharpened pencils and a TI-83.

On the eleventh day of finals, my professor gave to me eleven excel spreadsheets, ten nightmares of failing, nine rows of math problems, eight volunteering hours to schedule, seven (pages of) accounting transactions, six hours of sleep, five special journals, four papers to rewrite, three (a day) cups of coffee, two sharpened pencils and a TI-83.

On the twelfth day of finals, my professor gave to me twelve stressed out days!! eleven excel spreadsheets, ten nightmares of failing, nine rows of math problems, eight volunteering hours to schedule, seven (pages of) accounting transactions, six hours of sleep, five special journals, four papers to rewrite, three (a day) cups of coffee, two sharpened pencils and a TI-83.

When finals are over, I'll give to you--a much happier student Tori!

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

A New Perspective

Often when I read the Psalms, I think of “evildoers” as sinners, or those who directly oppose me or Christ. You know, the evil people David and other Psalmists dealt with, who would toss the good guys in pits and stand back laughing. For the most part, I don't come in contact with that type—I'd say no one is “out to get me.” In turn, I tend to belittle my problems, because they aren't as serious as starving in a pit, and then I feel like I have to pick and choose to find what parts of the Bible I'm relating to today.


However, just now, I realized that an “evildoer” could very easily be any circumstance in my life that makes it difficult for me to be with Christ or rest in His peace. And not only could an “evildoer” be a circumstance—it could be a frame of mind or an attitude. And I'll be honest with you—my attitude hasn't been so hot lately, not to mention my circumstances. In light of these revelations, these verses take on a whole new depth of meaning:

Psalm 37:1-9

A Psalm of David.

Do not fret because of evildoers, Nor be envious of the workers of iniquity. For they shall soon be cut down like the grass, And wither as the green herb. Trust in the LORD, and do good; Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the LORD, And He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD, Trust also in Him, And He shall bring [it] to pass. He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, And your justice as the noonday. Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for Him; Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way, Because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass. Cease from anger, and forsake wrath; Do not fret--[it] only [causes] harm. For evildoers shall be cut off; But those who wait on the LORD, They shall inherit the earth.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Prayer

Please keep praying for my family. My grandpa died...and its affecting everything.
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